Thursday, 14 December 2017

Goodbye 2017

I know I said I was going to give blogmas a go, however I realised very shortly after that my life really isn't interesting enough to qualify for blogmas. I would have just been posting everyday like "so guys, I went to work, came home, had some food, watched some parks and rec, went to sleep and then did exactly the same thing again for 5 days straight", not really interesting reading material. 

So instead, I thought to give myself a break for the holidays that I'd write a wrap up post for the year, and return fresh for 2018. So without further ado here it is: 

Sunday, 10 December 2017

BLOGMAS Day 7,8,9 & 10

So the last time I wrote was on the 6th of December, and a couple of things have happened since then. 

Thursday 7th December 
Thursday was the day of my new jobs Christmas party, and even though I didn't manage to get any photos of what I was wearing, I did manage to get a terrible, broken iPhone quality picture of the venue. It was at Denbie's Wine Estate, and it was such a beautiful venue. However, I did end up getting a bit too drunk and COMPLETELY obliterating my phone, hence why there hasn't been any new posts, I mean it's broken beyond repair.

Wednesday, 6 December 2017

Blogmas - Day 6 - Reigate on Ice

I am completely aware that I'm 6 days late for the blogging festive season, but better late than never. So on technically day 1 but also day 6, this is what I ended up doing. 
Reigate on Ice 
What better way to make yourself feel more festive than immersing yourself completely in the festive. Oliver and I woke up nice and early to spend our day wandering around Reigate. I'd forgotten to bring my camera along for the first part of the day but we pretty much went in every nick-nack shop there was, bought the BEST sausages I've ever had in my life from ------- (the Reigate royals), and also did a spot of christmas shopping too. 
After stopping back home to cook some lunch and bake some cookies, we ventured back into Reigate's own little Winter Wonderland.

Monday, 4 December 2017



Thursday, 30 November 2017


So my first month at my new job has gone EXTREMELY well, and to top it off it's payday! I cannot wait to be able to go out and drink, and eat nice food, and splash money on clothes, I'm hoping my blog is going to get a lot more interesting now. Get ready for a re-launch!

Saturday, 25 November 2017

The Winter Skirt

I've always been one to over dress for every occasion, going for a walk? Spend an hour doing my make up, going food shopping? Dress and heels. I feel like I have to seize the day  as you never know who you might bump into. So naturally (even in what feels like -20 degree weather) I'll continue to attempt to wear as little as possible without freezing to death. 

Tuesday, 21 November 2017


As much as I post of my body, self confidence has always been a big issue in my life, especially when it comes to how I look. I have NEVER been good at doing my make up, I always try my best and watch endless tutorials but nothing really sits right on my face, so my body has ALWAYS been my fall back when it comes to something I'm confident about. Over this past year my body has experienced a lot of changes, at the beginning of this year I was a completely different person to who I am now. 

Saturday, 18 November 2017

Affordable Things To Do With Your Partner

Both Oli and I are absolute pros at keeping ourselves entertained without actually having much money to do anything, and we have been for a good couple of months now, I thought what better post to write than one that could save you some money! So here are my top affordable things to do with your partner.

Thursday, 16 November 2017

Thursday Blues

I feel like the days are flying by at the moment and that's a feeling I really hate. I feel like when the days go by so quickly you can't completely seize them, there are so many things I've planned to do, especially for this blog, but I feel like I don't have the time - that's what makes me sad. Blogging is such a good stress release for me and it's something I genuinely love to do, creates more stress for me that I can't find the time for it - rant over. 

Sunday, 12 November 2017


Before you start scrolling through these photos, please ignore the rip in my tights! I put my nail through them before I started shooting and these were my only pair of 20 denier tights, first world problems. 

Wednesday, 8 November 2017

The Importance of Being Independent

Being independent is such an important issue to me, I feel I wouldn't have the same amount of confidence I do now if I wasn't. It took a long time for me to realise how dependant on other people I actually was.
I realised I needed to become independent when I was 19, I constantly looked for approval from pretty much anyone that showed me the slightest bit of interest and the thought of doing anything alone was the WORST. 

Friday, 3 November 2017


Autumn/Winter is the best season! Until you're under-prepared and have cut all of your jeans into shorts and all of your comfy tops into crop tops, adding salt to the wound with the fact you physically cannot afford to buy now clothes, you just have to get creative with what you've got.



Wednesday, 1 November 2017


Latest editorial with Lizzie Vince - You can read her post here

Sunday, 29 October 2017

The Skimmington Castle, Reigate Heath

I feel like Surrey is full of the best country pubs, often located in the middle of nowhere hidden away from the main towns, you know the ones that feel so homely and welcoming as soon as you walk in? The Skimmington Castle is definitely one of them.
Oli has been telling me for months that we should go (I thought it was an actual castle) and in the middle of our morning road trip he suggested that it'd be the perfect opportunity!
We'd arrived slightly early as the pub opens at 12, so we had a little wander around. 

Friday, 27 October 2017

Cooking with Oli: Bacon & Butternut Tortellini

Oli has cooked A LOT of tasty things for me throughout our relationship but I have to say this is up there as one of my favourites (bonus that squash is in season at the moment so it makes it extra tasty). It's also a lot easier to make than you'd think! 

Tuesday, 24 October 2017

Sultry Nights...

Is there any better feeling than wearing lingerie? There's just something about being draped in lace with bold red lips that brings out a different person in me. So as my love for lingerie continues to grow, you'll see all of it on here! (Going to make sure the lighting is better and less grainy next time but I've been wanting to do this for so long). I hope you'll enjoy this venture as much as I do! 

Being Organised

For anyone that knows me personally, they'll know that I was the most unorganised person. I'd always be at least an hour late to everything, I'd double book myself constantly but still try and fulfil both commitments, and I was pretty much just a mess in general. However, just over a month ago I was laying in bed being unproductive as usual, just scrolling through my feed on Facebook hoping to come across some good dog memes and I ended up coming across this video:

Monday, 16 October 2017


 I'm not going to lie, I really don't have a skincare routine, 99% of the time I'm not wearing make up (due to my job, I work in a Wetherspoons kitchen so you can imagine the grease and heat that gets all up in my face) and I wash my face when I have a shower and that's about it. However, when I put make up on for the first time yesterday my skin was so dry and horrible and as I'm leaving my job in 3 days I feel like I don't have an excuse to take better care of my skin. 
So this is going to be my new routine, if you have ANY suggestions on good products for dry skin please let me know, or any suggestions on just how to better your skin in general I am open to anything! 
I started off using my normal make up wipes, I honestly swear by these make up wipes, I've used them for years and they've always been the best for my skin. 

Tuesday, 10 October 2017


In honour of world mental health day, I thought this would be the ideal day to open up about my mental health issues, which is both therapeutic for me and hopefully helpful to someone who may have had a similar experience.
My depression started long before my panic attacks, through having a rocky upbringing and then being bullied throughout my early school years I feel like I've never mentally been in a  good place (until now that is), I was self harming and doing really stupid shit that really wasn't good for me, I definitely think a lot of my anxiety stems from my childhood and just being in a perpetual state of not feeling good enough. I felt like I wasn't worth anything to anyone and that my life was never going to amount to anything, and being a 20 year old now I find it crazy that I was experiencing that as an 12 year old, I was still a child. To this day I don't think I'll ever completely let go of those feelings, I still have down days like everyone but I find it easier to find the positives in life now. By the time I was 14 that's when I began drinking and smoking and I definitely didn't have the right people influencing me at that point, but I didn't really care, I didn't care if anything bad happened to me, I was just there to make myself feel better and have a good time doing so, but I think that just masked the panic that was brewing. A year later it all kicked in, and I was really struggling.

Tuesday, 3 October 2017

Fashion, Mental Health & Maison De Choup

I don't think you ever forget your first panic attack, I certainly remember mine, I was 15, sat in my maths classroom having a pretty normal school day and then I just remember starting to feel really odd, my chest tightened up, I went light headed, my heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest it was beating so fast, I remember biting my hand pretty hard to see if I was dreaming or not, I started to sweat and panic and I honestly just wanted to run away.  The same feeling happened to me every single day for around 3 months before I was told it was a panic attack, I just didn't understand how my body could have such a physical reaction to a feeling I thought was just in my head. 
Thinking back on it 5 years later, I have always been a highly anxious person, whether that was from watching too many disaster shows combined with a rocky childhood or from drinking too much and thinking drugs were a cool thing to take at a young age, I think it all mounts up and hits you in one go and that's when your body finds a new release for all of the years of built up anger, anxiety, and depression. It's a scary road when anxiety and panic kick in, and I still live with an anxious brain every single day of my life and I think it's just something that's going to always be there, but 5 years on I can say that I have so much more control over my panic attacks and I'll make sure to write a post on how I personally overcame my panic attacks. 
Fashion has personally been such a big help for my anxiety and mood in general, when I feel like I'm wearing a good outfit, and have my hair and make up all done up it genuinely makes me feel like a more confident person "Look good, feel good" is a statement I live by, I have a more "fuck it" attitude when I feel good about myself. Obviously I'm not saying that to look good you have to plaster yourself up, do whatever makes you feel good! But for me looking good has always been an issue, so to find something that it was something as simple as wearing a nice outfit, a pair of heels, and a bit of eyeshadow it was remarkable. 
As fashion has been such a big part of my life for the past couple of years, I want to talk about a brand that is making a difference for other people like me. 
Maison De Choup founded by George David Hodgson, inspired by his battle with anxiety, he has started a brand that aims to raise awareness and end stigma around mental health, he even donates 25% of all proceeds to YoungMinds, leading charity championing the wellbeing and mental health of young people. I honestly couldn't be happier to support a brand with a cause so close to home for me, and I think it's so important that we should be able to be open and honest about our mental health and address our issues head on. So thank you George for all you do for people with mental health issues, you're doing amazing.
Styled with my new favourite Missguided Coat, my trusty Primark High-Waisted Jeans, and Zara Chelsea Boots.

Sunday, 1 October 2017


Sadly I couldn't attend FW this season and it upsets me so much, first one I've missed in 3 years! However thanks to my girl gang (we call ourselves Nip Squad) I could be there in spirit, and I'll be posting some of the highlights! 
Photography by Alice Cassidy 

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