Sunday 23 December 2018

2018 Recap

2018. What a whirlwind of a year. I genuinely have no idea where to begin. There's been lots of alcohol (so much for making 2018 the year of caring for my body), heartbreak, therapy, confronting my mental health, 6 tattoos and a cat. I'm not sure where the last 12 months have gone. 

Before you read on I'm about to get deep in my feelings as this year has been almost as bad as 2017, just to pre-warn you it's about to get sad BUT and if you want to skip straight to the positive parts GO FOR IT. 

Anyway, this year started off with therapy. For those of you who have followed me on any social media or kept up with this blog, you'll know I went through some trauma last year. At the beginning of this year the repercussions of that trauma hit me all in one go. My mental health was in a bad state and I was in a very dark place. I sought help and gave it my best go but unfortunately it didn't do much for me. From there, I went in and out of highs and lows, I went to Amsterdam which is HUGE for me because I'm terrified of flying, and it was the best time of my life. I got a cat whom I cherish and love every single day. He has played a huge roll for my stress relief and wellbeing. I partied A LOT. I got promoted, focused on my work, moved up again within my company. I ended my almost 3 year relationship, went to Paris, and now here we are. Right now in this very moment in time, I'm ending the year how I started it. I'm not in the best headspace, I'm learning to be on my own again and rediscovering all of the parts of me I've lost, trying to be more vulnerable and talk about how I'm feeling to actual people instead of just venting it all out through my keyboard. 

For those nosey few that want to know why I ended my relationship, as cliché as it sounds I needed to learn how to love myself and be on my own before I can be in a healthy functioning relationship. I loved Oli, but it was unfair on us both towards the end to continue how we were. We're on good terms so don't worry. 

On a positive note, I'm determined to have a good year in 2019. It'll be the year I move out and start my career in London, and the year I am completely independent. This time next year, I can be like YES we did it, YES we had a good year.

Let's wrap this up, here are some highlights. 

See you in the new year! 

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