I don't think you ever forget your first panic attack, I certainly remember mine, I was 15, sat in my maths classroom having a pretty normal school day and then I just remember starting to feel really odd, my chest tightened up, I went light headed, my heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest it was beating so fast, I remember biting my hand pretty hard to see if I was dreaming or not, I started to sweat and panic and I honestly just wanted to run away. The same feeling happened to me every single day for around 3 months before I was told it was a panic attack, I just didn't understand how my body could have such a physical reaction to a feeling I thought was just in my head.
Thinking back on it 5 years later, I have always been a highly anxious person, whether that was from watching too many disaster shows combined with a rocky childhood or from drinking too much and thinking drugs were a cool thing to take at a young age, I think it all mounts up and hits you in one go and that's when your body finds a new release for all of the years of built up anger, anxiety, and depression. It's a scary road when anxiety and panic kick in, and I still live with an anxious brain every single day of my life and I think it's just something that's going to always be there, but 5 years on I can say that I have so much more control over my panic attacks and I'll make sure to write a post on how I personally overcame my panic attacks.
Fashion has personally been such a big help for my anxiety and mood in general, when I feel like I'm wearing a good outfit, and have my hair and make up all done up it genuinely makes me feel like a more confident person "Look good, feel good" is a statement I live by, I have a more "fuck it" attitude when I feel good about myself. Obviously I'm not saying that to look good you have to plaster yourself up, do whatever makes you feel good! But for me looking good has always been an issue, so to find something that it was something as simple as wearing a nice outfit, a pair of heels, and a bit of eyeshadow it was remarkable.
As fashion has been such a big part of my life for the past couple of years, I want to talk about a brand that is making a difference for other people like me.
Maison De Choup founded by George David Hodgson, inspired by his battle with anxiety, he has started a brand that aims to raise awareness and end stigma around mental health, he even donates 25% of all proceeds to YoungMinds, a leading charity championing the wellbeing and mental health of young people. I honestly couldn't be happier to support a brand with a cause so close to home for me, and I think it's so important that we should be able to be open and honest about our mental health and address our issues head on. So thank you George for all you do for people with mental health issues, you're doing amazing.
Styled with my new favourite Missguided Coat, my trusty Primark High-Waisted Jeans, and Zara Chelsea Boots.
